Beyond Redemption

So, today is the big day. InuGrrrl turns 9 years old (????) and I’m still kinda shocked about it. I totally didn’t expect to still be doing IY stuff all this time later, but I don’t regret a thing, not even the bullshit these nobodies put me through a few years back.

Their douchebaggery actually helped me grow because it strengthened my armor and made me a much more thorough person, which is actually a good thing since we’re always surrounded by dicks in life. lol. But it also taught me how to choose my friends wisely; everyone who is still in my life right now are cherished because they are, were, and will always be, the real.

Anyway, enough sentimental stuff! I’m hoping to update today and post a new skin for you guys, so I need to get to it. The chapter, as I warned in my last entry, will be really short. Sorry, but it makes life easier for me and I guess a short update is better than none, yeah? Thanks for the patience and I really hope I can eventually finish a few stories for you guys before I shut the door.

My best friend sent this to me, timed it so that I’d get it on my anniversary. Just how awesome is she?

As most of you know, I did end up updating The Neighbor and while I wasn’t super happy with the chapter, it was okay enough to finally post. Big thanks to everyone that came out and left a review. Yes, I know hundreds more read it, but I’m really acknowledging my reviewers for taking a minute to encourage. I didn’t leave any of my usual end notes; I was tired, having just pulled an all-nighter and didn’t have a lot to say, but they still popped in to say the enjoyed the chapter -even if it was in a one line comment. So, thanks for that. <3 That said, I've already started the next chapter, so it's safe to say that for now, my block seems to have subsided some, which can only be a good thing. No other story is on my mind atm, so chances are that will be the next update. However, I'm hoping to get Hikari and Eden posted soon as well. Just not sure exactly when. I've got a concert on Wed, so if I don't finish that chapter tonight, it probably won't post until late Thursday or Friday. Goodie Mob: The page has been updated.

I finally got my package! Kau rawks. She sent me all of my favorite candies and sweets from Louisiana (There are these chocolate pies they make down there. They’re fucking sick!) and she made me this gigantic almond log that’s so sweet it gave me a headache (salivates), and MJ’s This Is It pkge (2 dics DVD, 2 disc CD set, and commemorative book), The Rolling Stone MJ edition magazine, and a bunch of other stuff. SQUEE! kau is da shiznit! 😀

Now, onto The Mars Volta. Have you guys heard of them? I discovered them before Coheed & Cambria (But only by a few months). I bought their CD, De-Loused in the Comatorium, because I instantly fell in love with the songs, Son Et Lumiere, which immediately goes into Inertiatic ESP-they go together (I used that song in Suicide Rain, too.). They’re somewhat like COCA in the fact that both bands have Hispanic singers with high-pitched voices and the music is very “off the beaten path”.

When I bought my cuzzie an iPod at the Apple store, the clerk commented on my Coheed shirt, telling me that he liked them and Mars Volta and how the fans of both groups tend to not get along. Apparently, there’s a case of “You’re trying to be like us.” on both sides. I had never heard about that myself, but I think there’s room for both. For me, COCA rules all, period. But I like MV, too, and you guys (eyes Am!) should give them a listen! I’m preparing a lil’ sumthin’ sumthin’ for the G-page to make that happen, cause, you know, I gotta share. 😀

I haven’t heard all of their stuff yet. In fact, I’ve only heard 3 songs that I love -the two I mentioned, and an awesome one called “The Widow”, but I’m sure there’s more. I’ll probably do a playlist for them so you can hear their stuff, but be warned. They’re another one of my acquired tastes. 😛

I’m doing some writing -more shutting down of fics- and I’m going to make some decisions on what really, really isn’t going to be completed. I started all of my fics with the hope that they’d all get conclusions, but I think some probably won’t. Ever After found an end because it was special, but I think most forgot it was ever written because it took so long to end. There is another old one that may never see an end, too. I know people are waiting for it, but if it doesn’t come to me soon, I’m going to write it off. In other words, I want to concentrate on my current stuff, particularly the gift fics, so I can have my shit in order. I don’t know when I will stop writing (I did once, but not now), but I know it won’t be InuYasha fics forever. That means, I need to do what I’m going to do while I still have the desire to do it!

And in a WTF?! moment, why did I just hear that an Italian chef was banned from the airwaves (He had a cooking show), for suggesting that his viewers try “Casserole of Cat”. He went on to call the dish “succulent” and say that it was “a lot better than many other animals. Better than chicken, rabbit or pigeon”. Dude… o_O

And last, but not least, I ordered a plushie from Notoes for Kau who is a big Kouga fan as well as a Saints football fan, and this is what I came up with!

He’s even rocking Kau’s name on his jersey (though the number belongs to Reggie Bush). She loved him and that made me happy. 😀

Later taterz!

Q. Hentai?
A. Yes, thank you!

Hey Dolls! ^_^

Yeah, MIA again, but you know why if you’ve been to Absolution. I’m updating again and all of my spare time has been swallowed up with it. But that’s a good thing, ne? I just nailed the final spike in Ever After, and I’m proud of my handiwork. You have NO idea how good it feels to close out some stories. First, I did it with All The Things You Never Say, then Ever After, and now, I’m working on another. And those are just the ones that are near the end. That’s not counting the stuff I’ve been working on for the ongoing stories. Squee! With Honor came out decently, too, and I wasn’t even planning on updating that one yet. Woo! ^_^

My goal for the longest time has been to kill off the stragglers, and I feel like I’m finally accomplishing some of that. I really want to get rid of them in ways that please me, which is something I haven’t done in a while, so it’s been fun to see my visions come to life. And huge, HUGE thanks to y’all for showing the fics some love. I appreciate that so much. <3 Now, for the fucking RAGE. The post office sucks. We've established that before, but they just took sucking to a new fucking level. They've had my pkge lost since 2/16. 3 trips in person, 12 phone calls (at one point, I was on hold for 45 minutes), and a whole lot of "It's not physically here" (Then where the FUCK is it physically AT?!). Disgusted and thoroughly pissed off doesn't begin to cover how I feel. Kau sent me a birthday package filled with awesomeness, and they fucking lost it.

Don’t be surprised if I call some of you for bail money.

I just got a Placebo CD of cover songs that I didn’t have. They re-did Depeche Mode’s “I Feel You” and Kate Bush’s “Running Up That Hill”. The latter is better. DM is a very hard band to cover with any sense of decency. They’re too fucking epic to be duplicated, so while I love Brian and the boys, they’re not up to par when it comes to Dave Gahan’s singing voice. The music? Fantastic. The singing? Not so much.
(Goodies… :D)

I’m supposed to be working on a new skin for Absolution to be displayed in time for my birthday, but I’m having second thoughts. It has NADA to do with Neo’s beautiful work. No one rawks mah shit the way Neo does! xD My issue is that Kagome is in the picture. >.>

Y’all know that I tolerate Kags, and I love her for InuYasha, but on her own merit, I’m not a fan. More to the point, I don’t like the idea of having other characters on Absolution other than InuYasha and my anime likeness. Abi is completely, completely InuYasha’s domain, so having anyone else in the spotlight doesn’t sit all that well. Silly? Maybe, especially since I pen I/K fiction, but I’m territorial that way. I’ll probably still do it (the skin), but I’m in no big rush, lol. In fact, the only reason why I would is so that you guys can see Neo’s awesome shit!

Okay, I’m off to do some more writing. How about a little Yasha to tide ya over??

Beast by Sakasagami

Q: How awesome is Demon Yasha?
A: Pretty fucking awesome!

Happy Valentine’s Day!!

I hope you’re with the ones you love, and if there is no significant other, I hope there’s plenty of chocolate, comfort food, and DVDs! 😀

From me to you: Godiva Chocolate! ^_^

I’ve been MIA a little, but you guys know about the recent turmoil. Well, here’s a quick update before we get on to other stuffs! That punk is still in her classes and I’m not sure what the status is with his parents, or rather, mother. We’ve made it pretty plain that we do intent to press charges against him if this continues. We also let the school know that we will make a BIG FUCKING DEAL if they attempt to change her class because of him. That, to me, makes zero fucking sense. You don’t remove the victim when there’s a complaint. That’s the most asinine shit ever. You remove the fucking problem, you know? That’s like punishing the victim a second time. Is she supposed to have her school life turned upside down because he’s a lunatic? How about kicking him out? That’s the issue with schools today. Too much coddling goes on with the bad kids at the expense of the good ones.

Anyway, school is out for a week and she’s spending time over here, so that’s why I’ve been MIA. I’ve been doing a lot of talking with her and making sure she understands that we will never be mad at her in this kind of situation. She’s 18, but a very, very sheltered 18. This is extremely scary and weird for her, so being here (a good distance from home) makes her feel like her old self. So, there ya have it. Hence why I’m not around, and won’t be around all that much in the next few days.

On to the writing!

Hikari is giving me grief. I don’t know why this happens, but it does, lol. I’ll be on a roll for 3-4 chaps, then BAM! It starts stalling and not wanting to come to me. Urgh. I’ve been forcing it a little and I’m trying not to. It’s like I know what I need to write, but getting it out is just not happening the way it should. Sigh.

I also tried updating Danga’s fic (Last Exit to Eden). Another no go. That story hates me, it really does. I think I know the reason why there have been just 3 updates in about 3 years. >.> It doesn’t come to me AT ALL and every chapter has been forced. And sometimes, when I look back at old chaps I hated, I can find something about them I liked, or at least find a way to improve it, but not that one. That story doesn’t like me <.< and the feeling is getting mutual! I also looked at Everything You Want and I dunno where my plot for that story went, lol. Okay, I admit I didn’t really have one. It was a “break up to makeup” fic that should have been done in 3 chapters. Of course, it wasn’t, so now I’m trying to think of where I want to go with it. Fuck. LOL.

I haven’t started anything else, except With Honor, which I put down when the Hikari bug struck, so I may be picking that up again to try and get back into it. It’s an interesting story for me because it’s told in Yasha’s POV, so that’s always hard. Don’t be shocked if chapters are a bit slow in coming. Also, each chap will be under 3500 words. I want to start keeping my word on short chapters. It’s better for my hands (Hikari got 25,000 words in about a week. I won’t discuss what that means for my hands, lol.)

I almost started a new oneshot. I wanted it for V-day (it’s not V-day themed, though. I think fics themed for holidays are corny, and I’ll NEVER understand what possessed me to do the Xmas parties!), but it was smutty and cute. Alas, it’s not written, but it will be at some point. 😀

Movie Review Time!

The Masters of Horror Present: John Carpenter’s Cigarette Burns

I’ve gotten my hands on about 17 horror movies I haven’t seen yet, so me and the kid will be checking those out over her winter recess. Last night, though, I watched “Cigarette Burns”, which is part of the Masters of Horror collection and directed by the one and only, John Carpenter. Needless to say, it freaked me out.

Now, I haven’t seen all of his work, but he made Halloween, so I’ll always watch his horror stuffs. It’s only an hour long, but he used more gore in this short than everything he put in Halloween. Though, that scene in Last House on the Left is somewhat comparable –somewhat.

The premise is that a guy who hunts down rare films is hired by this old rich guy (I forget his name, but he was in Blade -the vampire elder that Stephen Dorf stuck out in the sun) to find this infamous French film that’s been banned and supposedly taken underground. They say it no longer exists, but the old guy is sure that it does.

The thing with the film is that it was only shown in theaters once and some killing riot went on, so the movie was seized by the gov’t and now it’s infamous and sought after. You never see the complete film at any point, but you see parts of it, and it’s creepy, and once you find out the film’s origins it’s even more creepy, especially when you figure out what the old man has chained in his hidden room. ::shudders::

The guy who’s looking for the film is also from the Blade saga (Part 2), and he has his own demons. Apparently, at some point, he and his girl were junkies and a few bad things happened. He also owns an “Angelika Film Center” type of movie house that he was able to purchase with money from her father, who won’t leave him alone. But that’s really background stuff, more or less, that will have a bit of closure by the end.

I don’t want to give away anything else, but it’s worth an hour of your time and available upon request. 0.~

Out of a possible 5 Yashas, I give Cigarette Burns a 3.5. If you want a good, horror quickie, I say, give it a shot.

The Emerald Forest

This movie is old and I stumbled on it by accident on Encore, or something. The premise is that a man (Powers Boothe -I think that’s the coolest name, lol.) moves his family ( a wife and young son) to the rain forest of Brazil where his company is building a massive dam to encourage development. While they weren’t paying attention, the kid is playing in the forest and wanders away and is kidnapped by the leader of a tribe who ends up raising him. For 10 years after that, the father keeps going back into the forest to find him and every year he comes up empty. Then, Eureka! He finds him, though he nearly dies doing so.

Okay, this is based on a true story, and in both instances, it’s just not happy. The thought of having your child stolen, and then having him choose to stay with the people that stole him is horrible. And yeah, you also start getting beat over the head with environmental messages, but for me, the heart of the story is that these people stole his son and turned him into one of them to the point that he doesn’t understand or accept his true culture in any way. (This won’t sound PC at all, but I don’t think there’s anything mystical and aw-inspiring about being raised by a bunch of naked people with mating rituals that involve bashing your intended in the head with a stick.)

But it’s fairly obvious that the message of the movie is this:

Modern Man: Bad.

Indigenous People: Good (despite the fact that they stole and brainwashed someone’s child).

And admittedly, killing off entire sections of rain forest is bad. They also show where a bunch of the women from the son’s tribe (including his wife) are stolen and forced into prostitution -also bad- but I’m glad they pointed out that it was done by a rival tribe that was working for the bad, modern Brazilians, not just making the Americans look awful.

All in all, the movie is sad and I walked away feeling only slightly okay with it because of the ending. It proves, once again, about a parent’s love and the lengths they’ll go to for their children. Otherwise, I wouldn’t watch this again.

Out of a possible 5 Yashas, I give The Emerald Forest 2.5. mainly because the guy that plays his son is adorable with the biggest, bluest eyes I’ve ever seen and because a parent’s love conquers all!

I’ll be back with more reviews as soon as I soak up some films! ^_^

Okie dokes, I’m gonna skidaddle, and hopefully, I’ll have an update of some-damn-thing for y’all soon. Oh! And many, many thanks to everyone who has been coming to the house lately and dropping reviews! I feel special, especially since some of them are from people I hadn’t met before. Thank you! 😀 I appreciate the support for the fics/writing. It always motivates me when I know people are reading and want to see more!

And if you’re in the Goodie Squad, it’s been updated!

Ciao, Bellas!

EDIT: Happy Birthday to my kid brother, Danga! He was born on my Mama’s birthday, Feb. 15th, but since I only post one birthday on that day, I had to stick him in here! 😀

WASSSSSSSSSSSSSSAUP, MY PEEPS?! 😀

It’s been a long ass time since I’ve updated this thing regularly, but that’s about to change. I had some shit in real life going on -and it still is- but I realized that I was letting it drag me down and get me in a crappy state of mind. Total opposite of my goals for the new year, so you know what? Fuck it.

Yeah, you heard me. 😛

Life only happens once and then you’re gone. I’m not going to waste mine letting all the pressures of real life squeeze me. I’m going to do what I have to do, but I’m also going to keep having my fun and doing the things I love. I advise y’all do the same.

*Throws a ‘fuck it’ party* xD

Okay, onto the fun shit! Lisztomania is fucking awesome. Now, I realize y’all may not be able to get into that song. >.> But some of y’all (Am, I’m looking at you) may get it. I heard this song after pursuing another song by Phoenix called “1901” from the “Rock Band” video game (I saw a commercial). So, I got my hands on the CD (Wolfgang Amadeus Phoenix) and heard this song.

I fucking love it.

Music is my thing. I love it more than InuYasha and I can usually decide if a song is the shit on the first listen. Well, this song had me bouncing from the first note. It’s catchy as FUCK. Of course, that made me get their earlier CDs and there are a few gems, so I’m adding them to my permanent iTunes list. Wanna hear them for yourself? You know where to go. >.> I also got my hands on Professional Murder Music’s discography and they’re good as well. Again, you know where to go if you want a listen.

Now for the movie review.

This week I finally saw Precious. Mo’ nique (Why does she spell her name this way?) earned the awards she’s been receiving, trust me on that one, but I have many, many issues with this film (and none of it has to do with anyone’s acting ability. Well, except Mariah’s. <.<) I understand what they were trying to say, or rather, what they expect you to feel, but all I took away from this film was anger. I'm not going to go into all of the things about it that pissed me off, but I will say this: When I saw the lead character described as a "typical" Black Harlem teenager in a synopsis, I was offended. There is nothing typical about that situation and the implication that accompanies such a statement makes me fucking furious.

I’m going to leave it at that.

Out of a possible five Yashas, I give this 2.

Onto more pleasant stuff! 😀

I want to thank everyone that came out to show the new story, With Honor, some love. I wrote it for Selina, but it makes me really happy to see such a positive response. So, thank you. I finally updated Loved, too, and that wasn’t just a job >.> it was a fucking adventure. <.< I've had a retarded amount of block on that one so it took months to finally finish the chap I started back in July. Horrid. I don't know what's up with me. Everything just gives me the fucking business, and I know I'm probably being too hard on myself (as always), but if I'm not satisfied, I automatically think no one else will be, either. Urg. My hope is to get more chapters done this week, but they'll probably be short. And forced. I'm not feeling very creative, so you'll probably feel that when you read them. But I'm at a point that if I don't at least try to work on older fics I’ll dump them all. For srs. So, if you like what you read, review and tell me so. Trust me >.> seeing that people want updates stops me from cutting shit off at the knees (the way I’d like to).

In other news, I’ve done more pulling away from fandom. Not from my lovelies, just this fandom. I find that I’m a lot happier when I’m not involved with people/places/things outside of my bubble aka the Feudal Pulp Fiction Network. I don’t like most of what’s out there and don’t need it. I’m content to write for YOU guys without any of the meaningless, bullshit accolades, gossip, and fuckery that these ‘no life’ types seem to indulge in. I have readers on ff.net and deviant art and that’s the only reason why I will continue to post there. Otherwise, I’m perfectly happy opening my home (Absolution) to my lovelies and surrounding myself with their humor and positive energy. The rest of this shit can blow.

I guess you can call me a happy recluse! 😀

Allrighty, I’m going to start dinner and open another half written chapter from, like, a year ago. >.> And YES, I will be posting the end of the OC fic soon. Thanks, again, for supporting that one. As I’ve said before, it means a lot because it was way out of my norm/comfort level, and y’all took the time to encourage it anyway. That’s why you’re my lovelies. <3 Happy Motherfuckin' Hump Day! [caption id="attachment_601" align="aligncenter" width="491" caption="Sakuban. Enough said."][/caption]

I have great friends. I really do. They’re the most thoughtful, wonderful people and that’s why they’re my friends and I love them to death. I just want to establish that now.

But I hate surprises.

Some wonderful souls -whom I can’t name because I wasn’t told who- had the awesome Notoes make some custom dolls for me. When I got the mail last night from her saying that one was delivered and the other was soon to be on its way, I was absolutely giddy. After all, her work is fabulous and I have beautiful friends.

Then, I realized that she said it was delivered. Yesterday.

No packages came yesterday. I asked for the tracking number -as my panic grew- and sure enough, USPS is saying it was delivered yesterday at 11:14am -when I was home ALL DAY. In a snit, I called the USPS 800 number, and the woman tells me in a very nonchalant voice, “It was probably delivered to the wrong address.”

What the fuck does that mean? These are PRINTED labels, which means that there is no chance of the writing being illegible. They’re just incompetent fucks all year round, but they seem to go for the fucking GOLD during Xmas time, which is why I do not send, nor do I like to receive packages during the holidays.

In general, when it comes to packages, I don’t like surprises. I need to know when something is coming so I can be on top of those assholes so I can get my shit. Now, whatever the lovely doll was, I’ll never know because it’s gone. This is NYC; the person that received it is not going to say, “Hey, this isn’t mine. Let me return it.” They’re going to open it and keep it and I’m absolutely FURIOUS.

I have since mailed Notoes and asked her not to send the second doll until after the new year. I don’t want to chance losing this one as well. I’m just so angry; it’s like everything is fucking me over at once.

EDIT: For everyone in the “goodie club” I’ve erected a page specifically for you! It’s right on the toolbar beneath the header. It’s password protected and everything is there, plus a couple of new ones.