Beyond Redemption – Where I am.

Where I am.

What’s going on with me?

I haven’t updated in several days, and I’m not holding out much hope for anything soon. My inspiration is fickle, and to be honest, the lukewarm response I got to my last few chaps have put me in a mindset that I don’t need to rush anything out. You either didn’t read it (Not), or didn’t like it (Probably), so what is the point of pushing myself? I’ll get to it when/if I feel like it. I doubt it will matter in the least.

Mhmm. Someone did piss in my cheerios. I always get like this at this time of the year. Tomorrow is the anniversary of my mother’s death and for about 2 weeks before and a week or so after, I’m a really different person. Not as nice, not as calm, and not as gracious. It’s my time of grief and reflection and it just puts me in a different space. I’m not really asking anyone to understand it, or even care. I am, however, saying that you’ll have to deal with it until it passes or just avoid me. *shrugs* Whatever works for you.

To combat my nastiness, I’ve sunk myself into facebook apps (games) and it’s awesome. I’m hooked on Castle Age and Vampire Wars and a few others that have helped me pass the time and not think about what’s coming. Yeah, finally gave in and got myself a Facebook. I always said I never would, but when I switched ED’s page, I kept the established account for myself. I chit chat with those I know, but mostly, I play games. It’s fun and it works. So, there ya go.

Speaking of ED, the awards there is going on and this is the schedule. When they end, the voting for the Eternal Legends will start. Visit the site -it’s pretty awesome. The premise? The ED Hall of Fame. Beginning retroactively, every eligible story that has ever placed first in their category will compete against each other for their own page on the site. Necessary? No. A gesture of kindness and acknowledgment? Yes. Like the Destined Awards, the only catch is that you need to be a member of the site.

I’m thinking about redecorating Absolution again, but I have no idea of what I want in the way of fanart except a Human InuYasha. It’s kinda like I pretty much have all of the neat pics I could ever want, but you know how I roll. There can never be enough Human InuYasha. I’d like another installment of “The Wicked Garden” skin, which would be a replica of the art Nikkie commissioned for my birthday. It’s from the fiction she gifted me and it was drawn by the sensational RighteousRed. I’ve gotten many commissions from her and she never disappoints. The wicked, Neo, created the background for it, and when the two images met, it was instant delicious -as you’ve seen. All very kind and gifted people.

InuRomp (my other IY comm on LJ) has started up and Salome suggested we try a new format where we have people pick a pairing and one of two sets of prompts. Then, they write 15 stories at 300 words each. This will go on until the end of Dec. (while I’m busy) and I’ve committed to InuYasha/Kagura. Did I mention it’s an alternative pairing comm? No traditional canon couples. Yeah, I’m stunned that I did it, too. But hey, it’s different and some of the stuff people come up with is great. Join if you want -just make sure you have your birthday in your profile. Now, here’s to hoping I can keep my word and write these ficlets. Argh.

Okay, I’m gone. Just wanted to pop in since I know I’ll be a little scarce. I can still be reached by e-mail and all, but otherwise, see ya later.

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  • 12 Comments

    • avatarLindsay says:

      Hey Inugrrl,

      I hope you feel better soon (although like you said you have to do it on your own time).

      And! I shall go and immediately comment on your fanfics!!!! haha.

      Lindsay

    • avatarSelina says:

      You are loved. By more than you know, I think.

      Don’t forget that.

      <3 <3 <3

    • avatarDa Grrrl says:

      Thanks, Lina. *squeezes ya*
      There are times when I feel hated, and times when I feel loved. You give me the latter, and I appreciate that. <333

      I don’t know why I still get this way. Well, I do, but it should be better with time, not the same or, in some cases, worse. Sigh. I’ll be okay. I always am, I just have to get past the day and I’ll be better. :)

    • avatarDa Grrrl says:

      Thanks, Linds. <33

      I appreciate the well wishes. I’ll be fine by the weekend, I think. I hope. Heh. And yeah, get in there and review!!!!!!!

      Kidding. 😛

      As long as I know, in some way or another, that you enjoy the fics, it’s all good. 😀

    • avatarBrowneyedmami says:

      hey bb, just checking in!

      Sending my love at this time. I will be going through something similar next month with the anniversary of my dad’s death, so big hugs!

    • avatarAm says:

      Castle Age, rotfl! I saw the tweets, lol…you need an intervention! Someone needs to call CA anonymous on ya! I used to play mafia wars when I was on myspace. They are addicting, and so much fun! Great for venting fustration.

      The romping is fun, too! I’m loving the alt.pairings and Kagura/Yasha sounds like it’ll be hot ^^

      *BIIGG HUGGGG* I hope you feel better. In the mean time, I’m wishing lots of hugs, lubb, and Inu-plushies (human, of course ;D) your way.

    • avatarDa Grrrl says:

      Thanks, doll. *hugs*

      I hate that we have such a wretched thing in common. :(
      Prayers and love.

    • avatarInu Hanyou Nikkie says:

      *HUGGLES* Still going be there when you are feeling dark and still going be there when you are feeling light. *More Huggles* I can be both the silent Love and the vocal Love. *winks* Those who love you understand this and stay by you no matter!

      Must get myself over to comment on the latest chappies! *GLOMPAGE*

    • avatarsmurfette says:

      YAY!!! I finally have my pc and the net running!!!! Which means I can go and read your fics that have been updated!!! Woohoo!!!

      I was going insane!!! I tell ya, I don’t know how I did it, but I did it!
      I was stuck reading an actuall book and magazines to help me along the way. Lol
      But it’s when my friend asked if I wanted to use his pc, before saying ‘yeah sure’ I was like on the chair and coming on Absolution in a heart beat! Lol.

      The move was alright. I broke off my relation with my bf and that’s the reason of the move. I just hate the fact that work was at my doorstep and now since then I have to take 3 bus to get there… *sighs*
      Oh well…

      But it’s good to be back! I read some of the updated fics a little fast but now I have all the time in the world to re-read them; to which I don’t mind doing so. Love reading your stories, can’t get enough! 😀 And on saying so, that’s what I’m going to go do now…

      Till then Take Care and *Higgles* 😀
      xxxx

      P.S. Hope you’re doing alright and my sympathies as well.

    • avatarDa Grrrl says:

      Hey Ms. Smurfy!!

      Damn. I’m sorry to hear about the break up, especially since it inconvenienced you withw ork. 3 busses sucks, I’ll tell you that. I’ve had jobs where I’ve had to take 3 trains, sometimes more, and it’s a horror show. >.<

      That said, I’m glad you got to come back to Abi and enjoy the stories, and thank you for always taking the time to review. I really appreciate it. I’ve been all caught up in facebook games lately and have barely written anything, but I’m going to remedy that with a few chapters soon. I’m just not sure which, but this new Paramore song is great for inspiration. I think I have an idea of what story will get hit next. ^_^

      And thanks for the sympathy, I appreciate it. I get beastly this time of year because of my loss, but I’m slowly bouncing back to normal. I hope to have something for you to read soon!

      *hugs*

    • avatarDa Grrrl says:

      Nikkie Bear! ^_^

      *HUGS*

      Thanks for all of your help, sympathy, love, and care. I appreciate it, and now that I feel more like myself (and I’m not plotting the deaths of others), I can get back into the swing of things. 😀 I’m working on new chapters (since castle age is being glitchy *cries*) and I hope to finish Love Like Winter soon. They’re one of the ones I definitely plan to end.

      *glomps*

    • avatarDa Grrrl says:

      Am!

      You know this message has been sitting in spam for days? o.O
      I have no idea why, either, since you’re on the approved list. Really tarded.

      I do need an intervention! I literally just forced myself to get off that game or I’d be there still. It’s such an addictive time eater. >.<
      I’ve been avoiding Mafia Wars, though I must have gotten 50 invites already. I can’t commit to another game like that, especially when
      I play Vampire Wars, too.

      I’m glad you like the romp comm. I haven’t even started my drabbles yet. I just don’t have any time/.inspiration with this insomnia and
      awards workload. It’s too much -I’m overwhelmed. But I look forward to seeing what you come up with! 😀

      *HUUUUUGS*
      Thanks for the support and well wishes. You’re totally awesome -don’t let any of these chickenheads tell ya different!

      *Falls into a tub of human yasha plushies*

      ^_^