Beyond Redemption

As I embrace my sixth year of being InuGrrrl, I have to say that the memories amaze. It started with a simple oneshot after discovering IY in early 2005. I saw a trading card of Sesshomaru and freaked because cartoons weren’t supposed to be that cute. Then, I was made to watch the first 3 episodes and the first movie. That’s when I met InuYasha and it was GAME OVER.

I loved him instantly, and when I saw him turn human a few episodes later, I knew he was the “one” (haha). I started researching IY and watching all the episodes I could get my hands on. Then, while googling, I stumbled across a fanfic written by Angelbabe17. I think it was Club Blue or the “Camp” one… I don’t remember, but I lost myself in her works and then started reading fanfic every waking moment. I’d literally spend hours reading, wasting all of my spare time, lol. Good times, though. It just amazed me that people could take my favorite characters and make all new worlds and stories -and there was smut! Delicious, fat-free smut! 😛

I was in heaven!

I don’t know if I ever said so, but Angelbabe17 was my fanfic inspiration (Turns out, she inspired my beloved Lucient as well) and is the reason why I delved so hard into Alternate Universe. I just seriously enjoyed the freedom of it -there were no rules to follow. I could place them in an American setting. I can haz smut -it was fantastic. And I’ll always be glad that I found her that day because that’s what jump-started me.

About 5 months later, I wrote my first oneshot. “The Realization of Love”. It was okay, nothing special. But it was nice to get my feet wet and it was my first lemon (gah!). It got a decent reception, with encouraging reviews, so I made more. It was genuinely fun for a while, writing my stories just for the sake of loving InuYasha and actually having others enjoy them. My grammar was for shit, admittedly, and I fell into a couple of cliche holes in the very beginning because I was so new to the IY storyline and hadn’t seen the entire series (of what was distributed), but once I got my feet firmly planted, I was off and running! 😀

I made several more oneshots, then started my first serial –Breaking The Girl, which, shockingly got a lot of reviews. (And I still don’t know why) It was a High School fic that I literally plotted as I wrote. I mean, on any given day, your guess would have been as good as mine on what was going to happen in the next chapter. I also took a lot of consideration with the readers, trying to add more of what they wanted to see and such. Kau just recently started adding all of my reviews to my site (So my archive can be semi-accurate when I finally close and save it), and I was really quite shocked by how much love it got. Over 300 reviews, and at the time, about 200k in hits. Looking back on it, that story was a mess, full of errors and such, but it was still fun to write.

I think my next serial after that was Suicide Rain, which did even better, and in between, I was still doing oneshots for my “Blood & Roses” series like The Last Tango, Vision of Love, Crush the Night, and so on. I think I was opening multi-stories from the start. In 2006 alone, I had started Edge of Seventeen, Sengoku Medical Center, Crucify My Love, Pretty Brown Eyes, even Hikari…

I won’t go into details; today is a good day and I want to keep it that way. However, I went through a lot of shit after I became “known”, and none of it was right or made sense, but as much as all those assholes can kiss my ass, I also thank them for making me feel so completely alienated from this fandom that I erected Absolution. If it wasn’t for their ignorance and douche-baggery, I’d still be fucking with public sites. So, thank you kindly. 😀

Now, for the shout outs!

“The HOA/EX Fam”: You guys are gold, my fucking sanity in this shit. Your jokes and craziness has always made the bullshit disappear, so thanks for that. *squishes y’all*

Kiki’s Angels: My beloved, whip all kinds of ass, super-talented artists. How much do you guys rock? Thank you for all of the wonderful art, both gifts and commissions. You’ve put many, many smiles on my face. 😀

My Staff -and the ‘Too Cool for the Room’ Neo: Thanks for all of the tireless, unpaid, but oh, so appreciated work on my sites. You guys are wonderful, truly, and I thank you.

NEOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!: YOU ARE THE BEST. EVER. BELIEVE IT.

My Onna: You’re my other “mom” and one of the most important people in my life. My prayers are with you. You’re loved always.

My Lily: You have no idea how many times you got me through the day. I’m so glad I met you; your loyalty, friendship, and ridiculously fantastic personality makes my day everyday. You’re loved in NYC!

My Chibi and Lucient: I love you, guys. Thanks for being with me for everything. We had the best of times, ne? *Hugs tight*

Last, but first, My Kau: You are my best friend and only kau. I know I don’t have to say anything more. *snugs and ( *o(^*?) *

To all the nice people I met along the way who took a minute to say something kind, draw me a picture, or even dropa friendly PM or e-mail, thank you. The small things do count.

The Lovelies: Gosh, some of y’all have been with me so long. It’s been an awesome ride, despite it all. Many thanks to those who have always supported the work with a review, e-mail, etc. It’s always appreciated and served as a reminder that I have more of a reason to do this than just aggravating my carpal tunnel. I also want to thank y’all for the great art, fics, AMVs, and good times. Whenever I finally lay down my pen, you’ll be missed.

Now to bring Absolution’s 5th birthday in right with a chapter for every year she’s been my home!

The site is open. New skin. Updates are posted. Thanks for reading.<3