Beyond Redemption

Okay, so the past few weeks have been rough, and I’m not quite back to myself yet, but I’m on my way there. My mother wouldn’t want this for me, therefore, I always try to bounce back as soon as I can. Again, not 100%, but much better than I was even yesterday. Many, many thanks to all of my friends, my true-fucking-blues who were there. They didn’t bombard me with false sympathy, or with a million words of little meaning that would make me feel worse. They were simply there, and when I wanted to talk, I did, and when I didn’t, they let the silence be a comfortable one. Most of all, they kept me laughing, and Li-Li, Lily, Liz, Nikkie Bear, and Kau, words cannot express your fantabulousness.

Hey, I think I just made one! xD

Like I said on FB, I have the best friends on the planet.

*GLOMPS HER AWESOME INNER CIRCLE*

So, back to fucking business, shall we? 0.~

I’ve been feeling low about writing and a gang of other stuff. Some of it has to do with my mom’s anniversary, some has to do with fandom and all the crap that comes with it. I do a lot of work between running ED, helping out at the FA, The Boiler Room, Absolution, Challenge Destiny, and all the other small things I tack on that keep my 16 (Yes, 16) websites intact. That doesn’t count my real life responsibilities, either. I get burned out easily, especially with my off and on insomnia -and it’s now ON. But also, I wonder if my readers are enjoying the wares. If you review, I know. If you don’t, I have no idea, and I usually think in the negative.

I’ve said it a trillion times, but other than a few giftfics I’m going to do, I only keep updating for the lovelies that want to read it. So, if I don’t think you’re enjoying certain stories, they’re not going to get updated anymore.

Mhmm, I’m serious.

Why? I have carpal tunnel, and like I already mentioned, a lot of other things to do. If I think I’m wasting my time in my efforts to entertain those that I write for, I’m not going to. lol. It’s really that simple. After all, I know how all my fics are supposed to end, so it won’t matter to me if I don’t actually post those endings. Why would I be concerned about it if I don’t think my readers are? That’s silly. Unlike a lot of other people, writing is my hobby, not my ambition. And don’t take this as bitchy or blackmail, because it’s actually not that at all. It takes me hours on hours to write a single chapter now because of CT. If my readers can’t take 5 minutes of their time to leave a review, why should I break my wrists for a chapter they’ll probably hate? Nah. 😀

That said, there WILL be updates in the near future. Killing fics isn’t set in stone. If I think you still like, and want to read, the stories and updates, I’ll keep writing. If you don’t, then I won’t. That’s pretty much the deal. So, we’ll see how the next few weeks play out, yah?

If you’re a member of Eternal Destiny, make sure you nominate for the Destined Awards. Acknowledging the people that fill your boring days with fun is the least y’all can do for the hours of unpaid, and often, thankless work. Get in there and do the right thing! And don’t forget to go check out the Eternal Legends Nominees. Polling for that will begin on Nov. 1st, leaving you plenty of time to re-familiarize yourself with our past first place winners.

Same goes with the Feudal Association. Nominations there are going for another week, and that’s fandom-wide, so nominate some stuff you like. I’m particularly talking to all of these authors that enjoy winning things, but won’t take a few minutes to support their fellow writers. Don’t be so selfish; share the love.

Okay, I’m done for now. Since hibernation is nearly at an end for me, I’ll be around more. I’ll be doing some drabbles and stuff soon, too, so watch for mail if you’re own my mailing list, or breeze by Absolution when you get some time.