Beyond Redemption

Just a little -big- Happy Birthday to Little Kikyou (I hope she’s loving the flat screen TV that I bought for her)

and Abby-Abbs! Enjoy your day, ladies!

My friend was admitted to the hospital yesterday after a 2-day tint of pain. Not even sure what’s going on yet, but he’s in ICU. Sigh. Really pissed off at his idiot doctor -and him- for not telling me sooner so I could help him avoid this. I think it’s severe food poisoning (Stay away from Subway’s veggie sub >.>), but there was something else wrong, too -more of the problem he was hospitalized for before. It’s sad and all he has is me. I doubt I’ll be able to update anything by my anniversary, not unless he makes it home by this weekend. My fingers are crossed, but that’s for him, not a stupid fucking story.  Couldn’t even make my dental appointment. Fuck.

Tears and fears and feeling proud, to say “I love you” right out loud,
dreams and schemes and circus crowds, I’ve looked at life that way.
But now old friends are acting strange, they shake their heads, and they tell me that I’ve changed.
Something’s lost but something’s gained in living every day.

I’ve looked at life from both sides now,
from win and lose, and still somehow
it’s life’s illusions I recall.
I really don’t know life at all….

Forever Missed.

Finally, my friend is being discharged from the hospital. He’ll be on medication, but his condition is much better than it was when this first started. He’s in good spirits, no pain, and is more than ready to get the hell out of there after almost 2 weeks. He’ll be staying with me for a while so I can keep an eye on him, but otherwise, things are good and a BIG worry is off my shoulders.

I did some writing over the last 2 nights. OMG, I’m so fucking rusty. I wasn’t feeling it at all -and that worries me. You know, I told you guys that my biggest fear is staying away from fanfic too long and not wanting to come back. Well, that fear is worse than ever! The words were just giving me hell. Nothing wanted to flow.  It was downright painful.   So, I don’t know when a chapter will be ready, but seriously, don’t expect greatness. It will take a while for me to find my footing -and interest- in my stories again. And it’s not like I forgot anything; every plot, even the ones from 2006, are still fresh in my head. It’s the actual work of writing them out that’s fucking me over… I’m hard on myself, unnecessarily so, and coupled with lack of interest, well, you get the idea.

Everyone I owe mail to: I haven’t forgotten that I owe you mail and I’m SO sorry I’m a total butt and haven’t gotten around to doing it yet. Forgive me -it’s almost 2013!   Okay, the new year doesn’t have anything to do with it, but still…

In other news, IG [dot] Net will be getting a new layout for 2013. Nothing too fancy, since it’s really just a directory, but I think you guys will like your provocative Grrrl! Eternal Destiny turns 6 years old on Tuesday, and to celebrate, a really good friend of mine, Moniquiu, made a special header/wallpaper for the occasion. I usually buy new AU fanart, but this time, I went with a canon motif. Last, but never least, Absolution will show off a new skin as well (Not associated with any story). Let’s just say it’s when “worlds collide” and signifies that no matter how you prefer InuYasha, he is one and the same.

And yes, I’m still obsessed with Kevin Woo and U-KISS. He’s just SUCH a cutie patootie! Especially when he’s dressed like this:

Dayum.

Aaaaaaaand, my beyond awesome friend, Ayling, made some fanart for my fanfic!! I think its for If I Want To (She enjoys that one a great deal, and coincidentally, that’s the one that’s been giving me fits these last 2 days…). It’s SMEXY!!! <a href=”http://inugrrrl.net/gallery/displayimage.php?album=59&pos=0″>Wanna seeeeeeeeee?</a> I got some other pretties you guys would L-O-V-E from Man-Man (Who’s probably reading this!), but I don’t want to post them until she’s finished/ready to show them. But whoa, you’re going to adore her stuff. I know the most talented people!   Im also working on another piece for the neighbor. I’ve asked my darlin’ Sarah to do it this time and think you guys are gonna enjoy it greatly. Now if I could just get the damn chapters written so you can get hit two-fold.  ARGH.

Happy Friday!

I got some good news today. My friend’s doctors have finally taken the life-threatening diagnosis off the table. He’s still sick, but they’re now confident that he isn’t as bad off as they first thought he was and the main illness (There are several things wrong with him) has been reduced from worst case scenario, to “can be halted/corrected with medicine”, so I’m pretty happy and relieved. Chances are, like me, he’ll have to take medication for the rest of his life, but dammit, at least there will be a life to live!

I’m going back to the hospital to see him tomorrow. They say that he could be released on Christmas Day, but that would be the best case scenario. Which means he’ll most likely be stuck in there for the holiday, which blows. But that’s okay; I’ll be there with him. He won’t be alone. No way. And since my spirits are up and things are staring to look much better, I’ll be trying to get something typed up for you guys by the new year (Oi, that’s not even 2 weeks from now!). I have a lot going on between real life, ED’s 6th anniversary (On New Year’s Day), their Secret Santa at deviantART (On Xmas Eve), and their Legend Awards (all going on within this holiday), but I’ll work something out. You know the drill -especially right now- don’t expect anything long. The chapters WILL be far less than what you’re used to because I’m pressed for time in every possible way, but I don’t want the new year to start without giving y’all something -you’ve waited long enough!