Beyond Redemption

My Kau made a new video for me! Kind of a commemorative video displaying all of my headers from Absolution -even the stuff you guys haven’t seen yet- and it’s so fun because she used one of my favorite industrial songs.

I don’t know when I’ll post it for you guys (I kinda wanna wait until you’ve seen all of the headers the right way, but who knows. I may crack. XD), but you’ll like it, I think. Totally made my day. I’m all giddy now and I may even write a bit. Woo!

Will you still love me
When I’m no longer young and beautiful?
Will you still love me
When I got nothing but my aching soul?
I know you will, I know you will
I know that you will….

It only took all day and all night -literally- but fuck me if I didn’t get that update posted at 5AM, lol. Now that’s determination! I’m gonna sleep like I’m in a coma for a few hours. Enjoy the update, go see the new art on the layout (and the commissions I posted at my gallery), and thanks for hanging out with me over the last 8 years. It’s been a slice! (ɔ˘з˘)ɔ

Well, God willing, I will have at least one update on my anniversary, lol. I have no idea why it’s important to me to update on that day. I guess it’s tradition, or whatever, but yeah. Not having anything at all was bugging me. I actually had a nice plan for my ‘birthday’ this year, but it’s all fucked now, so… forget it.

I’m tired. In a lot of ways. Nothing is fun anymore. Maybe I’m just horribly rusty, but everything is work and nothing is fun, so it just sucks. As for what’s being updated, well, it’s been a fave with my readers, but I can tell you now that it’s not The Neighbor or If I Want To, so if you were looking for those, stop now. I’m updating what happened to give me the least shit -and even that’s giving me shit- so it’s a kinda, take what you can get situation. Don’t expect anything awesome. I’m rusty, and like I said, just tired.

Later.

Today’s Confession…

1. I still don’t have anything updates written. What a nightmare. >.>
(Why can’t I get myself to actually feel like writing something?)

2. My friend is finally out of the hospital, so I can concentrate again. I hope.

3. My fridge hasn’t worked properly in almost a week. WTF?
(Waiting for the repair guy now)

4. Fall Out Boy’s new album is actually good. Should have checked it out sooner.

5. I haven’t been answering my e-mails for a while. I’ve got them, and when I really feel like sitting down and digging in, I’ll reply. However, that time is not right now.

/Confession.

Well, two things:

1. I was correct when I said my friend got food poisoning -a really severe case. He bought a veggie sub from Subways, and not too long after, got really ill. I think he should sue. He’s been in so much pain -going on a week- and he’s been in the hospital since last Wed. night. They say he may get discharged tomorrow, but I think it will be Tues or Wed. The bacteria they found in his stomach is so bad that as of yesterday, I’m banned from seeing him until they can determine if it’s contagious. I was told to wash my hands and shower as soon as I got home, which I did, and it just pisses me -the fuck- off. I went trolling around the net and found that a shitload of people have gotten poisoned from Subway’s food. WTF is that?

2. Since I’m banned at present and staying inside today, I’m going to use the time to attempt some writing. I really want to have some kind of update for my ‘birthday’, so this is the day to do it. Not sure what fic it will be -whatever cooperates- but you shouldn’t expect greatness because I’m rusty as all get out.

Happy Sunday.

Just a little -big- Happy Birthday to Little Kikyou (I hope she’s loving the flat screen TV that I bought for her)

and Abby-Abbs! Enjoy your day, ladies!

My friend was admitted to the hospital yesterday after a 2-day tint of pain. Not even sure what’s going on yet, but he’s in ICU. Sigh. Really pissed off at his idiot doctor -and him- for not telling me sooner so I could help him avoid this. I think it’s severe food poisoning (Stay away from Subway’s veggie sub >.>), but there was something else wrong, too -more of the problem he was hospitalized for before. It’s sad and all he has is me. I doubt I’ll be able to update anything by my anniversary, not unless he makes it home by this weekend. My fingers are crossed, but that’s for him, not a stupid fucking story.  Couldn’t even make my dental appointment. Fuck.

Today’s -Rapid Fire- Confession…

1. My fucking fridge isn’t working properly. The freezer is fine, but everything in my fridge is, like, room temperature. I’m so pissed off.

2. I’m sick of taking care of people. I’m sure that other frustrations are at play here, making me unbearably cranky, but really, I’m tired of being doused in other people’s fucking problems. I have enough of my own.

3. I’m less than 2 weeks away from my anniversary and I don’t even have one update ready. Not one. I’m so fucking disgusted. So much for my update tradition.

4. This root canal/crown thing is still not fucking finished. Dentist tomorrow, and again in a week. What the actual fuck?

5. The mailman is never accurate, not even for priority mail. Every time Kau sends me priority stuff, I feel like telling her not to bother because those fuckers can’t get shit right, ever.

6. Summer is almost here and I hate this fucking hot weather.

7. Been stuck on the same level of this FB game for, like, 4 days. WTF?

8. Right now, I just hate every-fucking-thing.

/Confession