Beyond Redemption

What a fucking week. So work is kicking up a lot -happens every summer- and today I did a 24 hr all nighter. The plan was to have off, but then I got a begging call to fill in and I went. Only high point is that there was a comp for me to play with. By the time I reached home I was just dead on my feet. I woke up at 11pm and shit. Ungh. But my sleep patterns were already shitty (aren’t they always?), so there ya have it.

I think I made a few shit lists this month, too. But the way I feel right now? I don’t even care. I’m tired. Either love me, or leave me alone.

The anniversary of my Gram’s death is upon me, so I’m shittier, but fighting it. I did good with mom’s b-day this year and I’m determined to deal with this the same way. However, I do have a “so-fucking-what” attitude right now. *shrugs*

The writing is coming slowly. I’ve given up on The Neighbor for the moment because I’m viciously blocked and the more I work on it (and hate it), the more I start to hate the whole fic (Yeah. Temperamental writer.) So before it goes there, I’ll put it down and take a breather. There is a patch of good news with that fic, though. I commissioned art for it, so that oughta rock out loud. Maybe it will inspire another string of updates. I hate to disappoint, especially since people were actually reviewing for a change, but I can’t give what I don’t have. However, I did see my poll numbers. *dirty grin* I’ll take those results into serious account when I write the next few chapters, but remember, no crying when you asked for it! xD

I started working on the next chapter of The Knife of Romance. Someone reviewed it the other day and reminded me that it’s been a while (Thanks for that, if you read this journal. I need those taps on the shoulder or time will run away from me.). In fact, it’s been exactly one year and makes me wonder where the time went. It doesn’t feel like that long passed. I hate that I’m not more prompt with updates, but again, can’t give what I don’t have.

Another bright spot is that I ordered those vector chibis and Ayamegusa delivered like a day later (no lie). She’s da bomb. I did them based on existing commissioned fanart I have, so they’re extra kawaii.

This is Biker Boi Yasha

Isn’t he fucking cute? I squeed myself into a headache, but the one she did for Hikari Yasha is immaculate.

Yes, tiny images watermarked to the tenth for obvious reasons. I also put up Neo’s version of InuYasha Emmanuel at Absolution (Crimson Angel). It’s fucking awesome, I’ll say that. She also made cute headers for my chibi. One is on my gallery, the other will be on the gallery soon -maybe Abi as well because it’s so pretty. The mini version doesn’t do the angel one justice, honestly. The full size is 5000×4500 and it’s amazing. I plan on ordering more in the very near future. 😀

And Neo, words can’t describe her awesome. She made me some seriously gorgeous headers in the last few months and she just designed the new banner for ED’s Hall of Fame. Fucking wow. It’s so cute and original. I fucking love that girl! (^_^)b

In other news, the ED Deviant Art group is doing well. I didn’t expect many to join, so it’s surprising that it has nearly 70 members and has only been open a week. I never expect people to get involved with anything that has my name on it (If you’ve been with me a while, you already know why). But hey, it’s about time that people in this fandom start maturing and realize that a group, site, whatever isn’t about the owner, but the purpose. With the way the s/k crowd tries to force-feed us that shit on the daily, you’d think more people would support anything I/K just to drown that mess out. Then again, RT legitimizes our pairing, so yeah. Good luck with that. lol.

Same with Inu/Sango (can we say, ew?) I don’t know what that’s about, but ungh. One of my lovelies asked me to write one a long time ago. I intend to do it before I retire, but that isn’t my thing at all just like the s/k fic I did. I respect the former more than the latter, but still. I can do anything as a gift, but I’d never pen that for my own enjoyment. Not. Ever. And a Kik/Inu fic for anyone or any reason is a negative.

Pairing brat much?
Yes. Yes I am. Deal with it.

COHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEED!

My saving fucking grace! I’ve been overdosing on Year of the Black Rainbow (even more than when I got it a few weeks ago) and it’s cause the official release date is Tuesday. I’ll prolly buy it at midnight on Monday because I think you may need a purchase for Tuesday. My boys are doing a signing in Manhattan; I’ll try to be there since there’s to be an acoustic performance. SQUEEE. I look forward to hearing the crowd participation and getting my CD signed. I saw them for the “No World For Tomorrow” signing and it was awesome (I got free concert tix!). They’re all really nice, too. I just wish my Claudio plushie would be ready in time so I could show it to him. I already love that doll. xD

One of the demo songs you can only get on the Deluxe Edition is “The Lost Shepherd” and holy fucking cow, it’s so good. (Song 2 on the playlist). Coheed isn’t for everyone, so you may not like it, but I love it. Totally inspires me to write.

“Here’s my blood, ’cause you will accept no other.”

GAH. Awesome, awesome shit. Sometimes CoCa is the only thing that makes me smile on a given day.

My allergies and vertigo are back. I had to go buy a $26 bottle of zyrtec so the room would stop spinning. If you don’t remember from last summer, I have those “developed as an adult” allergies that fuck up my eyes and ears. When my ears get fucked up, I get vertigo (that’s a fancy name for “The fucking house is upside down. Make it stop!”). Example? I’ll be sitting at the computer and if I, say, start shaking my leg, the entire room starts shifting and moving like I’m on a boat. It’s much worse than “not fun”, but drugs do help.

I finally watched “Orphan”, and while I won’t do a full movie review, I’ll say that it was pretty good. The punchline is o_O but I didn’t expect it and they get kudos for that. And the one that plays the son plays Young Kirk in the new Star Trek, so that was cute. The mother was in this wild movie called “Running Scared” and worth seeing just for the insanity of it. There’s this one part with pedophiles that just FREAKS YOU OUT (one of them was Juliette from Lost). I dunno, may have to “goodie” that one up. 0.~

Anyway, I wanted to do an update since I had some time. I cleaned up my LJ and put a new layout up. I won’t be a fixture, but I’ll peek in every once in a while and I’ll be dealing with comm stuff through it. My arms are bugging me more, and I have a gang of shit coming up from the last week of May on (including a Coheed concert! Squee!) so it will be busy (and ache-y), but I’m going to make time to write and get some short updates going.

Have a ‘nut bustin’ weekend! ^_^

EDIT: I just made sugar cookies (at 5am >.>) and poured a glass of ice-milk.

*Overdoses*

EDIT II: I watched a movie called Dread last night (Clive Barker) and it was decent, as horror movies go. The ending, well, I won’t spoil it. But there’s this really annoying trend in movies now… Anyway, the point is they had some cool music in it. I did some research and there doesn’t seem to be a soundtrack. GRRR. So I’m running down songs. But one I found, “Ghouls” by We Are Scientists is pretty damn good. Different but so different that it’s actually really good. 😛 Anyway -G page! (Am, go check it out. I think you’ll like it!)