Beyond Redemption

Okay, so I should be trying to sleep, but I had to come in here and post this because it’s too fucking cool to be believed! Lily (You know her as Sayuriko) wanted to cheer me up and spent her time (prolly ages!) carving a pumpkin for me. It blew my head and you may not be far behind. CHECK IT!!!

A gift from my Lily: Absolution InuYasha!

Lit up and purdeeeee!

Fucking SQUEE!!

Come on… is that not one of the coolest things you’ve ever seen?! Can you even imagine the work and patience??? >.< It brought a smile that made my jaws hurt and misty eyes! How totally, TOTALLY awesome. He's even got his "IG" tattoo! SQUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thank you, again, Lily. <3333333 I LOVE IT!!!!!! (And you! *hugs*)

Okay, so the past few weeks have been rough, and I’m not quite back to myself yet, but I’m on my way there. My mother wouldn’t want this for me, therefore, I always try to bounce back as soon as I can. Again, not 100%, but much better than I was even yesterday. Many, many thanks to all of my friends, my true-fucking-blues who were there. They didn’t bombard me with false sympathy, or with a million words of little meaning that would make me feel worse. They were simply there, and when I wanted to talk, I did, and when I didn’t, they let the silence be a comfortable one. Most of all, they kept me laughing, and Li-Li, Lily, Liz, Nikkie Bear, and Kau, words cannot express your fantabulousness.

Hey, I think I just made one! xD

Like I said on FB, I have the best friends on the planet.

*GLOMPS HER AWESOME INNER CIRCLE*

So, back to fucking business, shall we? 0.~

I’ve been feeling low about writing and a gang of other stuff. Some of it has to do with my mom’s anniversary, some has to do with fandom and all the crap that comes with it. I do a lot of work between running ED, helping out at the FA, The Boiler Room, Absolution, Challenge Destiny, and all the other small things I tack on that keep my 16 (Yes, 16) websites intact. That doesn’t count my real life responsibilities, either. I get burned out easily, especially with my off and on insomnia -and it’s now ON. But also, I wonder if my readers are enjoying the wares. If you review, I know. If you don’t, I have no idea, and I usually think in the negative.

I’ve said it a trillion times, but other than a few giftfics I’m going to do, I only keep updating for the lovelies that want to read it. So, if I don’t think you’re enjoying certain stories, they’re not going to get updated anymore.

Mhmm, I’m serious.

Why? I have carpal tunnel, and like I already mentioned, a lot of other things to do. If I think I’m wasting my time in my efforts to entertain those that I write for, I’m not going to. lol. It’s really that simple. After all, I know how all my fics are supposed to end, so it won’t matter to me if I don’t actually post those endings. Why would I be concerned about it if I don’t think my readers are? That’s silly. Unlike a lot of other people, writing is my hobby, not my ambition. And don’t take this as bitchy or blackmail, because it’s actually not that at all. It takes me hours on hours to write a single chapter now because of CT. If my readers can’t take 5 minutes of their time to leave a review, why should I break my wrists for a chapter they’ll probably hate? Nah. 😀

That said, there WILL be updates in the near future. Killing fics isn’t set in stone. If I think you still like, and want to read, the stories and updates, I’ll keep writing. If you don’t, then I won’t. That’s pretty much the deal. So, we’ll see how the next few weeks play out, yah?

If you’re a member of Eternal Destiny, make sure you nominate for the Destined Awards. Acknowledging the people that fill your boring days with fun is the least y’all can do for the hours of unpaid, and often, thankless work. Get in there and do the right thing! And don’t forget to go check out the Eternal Legends Nominees. Polling for that will begin on Nov. 1st, leaving you plenty of time to re-familiarize yourself with our past first place winners.

Same goes with the Feudal Association. Nominations there are going for another week, and that’s fandom-wide, so nominate some stuff you like. I’m particularly talking to all of these authors that enjoy winning things, but won’t take a few minutes to support their fellow writers. Don’t be so selfish; share the love.

Okay, I’m done for now. Since hibernation is nearly at an end for me, I’ll be around more. I’ll be doing some drabbles and stuff soon, too, so watch for mail if you’re own my mailing list, or breeze by Absolution when you get some time.

I’m finally inching out of the hole. I updated Love Like Winter, another fic that hadn’t been loved in a calendar year. Urg I liked it, too, which was a miracle for me these days. I liked writing it and I liked the lemon that pushed it from PG-13 to R. It’s not my usual raunch -wouldn’t work for the time period- but still fun to pen and that’s the true miracle since I hate writing lemons.

I’m starting the next chapter, and I just may end it with this one. If not, there will be 1 more after it. LLW is a short, simple story, but I have a tendency to get slightly long-winded in my quest to not have a chapter appear rushed. So, we’ll see. I also demolished my word count pact by going for about 9500. But I needed to because I need to finish this without adding a zillion chapters.

Do you guys even read this shit? Seriously. Do you read the fics and/or this update blog? I’ve been seeing big visitor counts, but you’re barely reviewing. Did you like the updates? Hate ’em? Felt meh about them? It would be nice to know. Lurkers on Absolution -people that visit and never say anything- bug me. I like to know who is in my house. By remaining ghosts, you feed my gnawing instinct to padlock my site and have people request a password in order to get in. That way, I know exactly who is in there.

It can be done, and I’m pretty tempted.

Anyway, ED awards start on Sept. 1st, along with a little extra thing I’ve decided to implement, so it will be busy in coming days. However, provided my inspiration is still there, I will continue to update, even if it’s small shots. I want to get some of these stories down and I’m serious about it this time. Hell, I may even do a fan appreciation month (Yeah, changing it to a month).

For those that are kinda new to me and don’t know about the “tradition”. I used to do a “Fan Appreciation Week” where I would update every single WIP I had in my library. It was a task, but it was my way of giving all of my lovelies a gift -an update of whatever their favorite fic was. At that time, my WIP stable was much smaller, so a week would never be enough now. To make matters worse, the last time I tried to do it I got hit with supreme block and couldn’t. Ungh. But I’m getting into my zone now, so who knows? I just may surprise ya. 0.~

Spammers have been hitting the sites. Pisses me off and makes me use captcha, which pisses me off more because it can be faulty. What do these assheads get out of that? So, I’ve taken to leaving it off when I update for the first day or two, in case anyone wants to comment, and then I put on the security in between. It’s annoying, the entire fucking process.

And one more thing, if you friend me on Twitter, seriously, note me and tell me who you are. I’m not adding you if I’m unfamiliar with you. 10 people, so far, are waiting for approval, but I’m not sure who they are. Don’t let that happen to you! 😛

Anyway, I’ve got some stuff to do. See ya on trail.

EDIT: I pulled a muscle in my back. The same fucking pull that put me in physical therapy most of last summer. WHAT. THE. FUCK.

After checking out the poll results (of those that bothered to vote), I’m going give “little” chapters a spin on certain fictions. I mean, I’ll try to pack in the “happenings” as much as possible within the small ones, but for now, I really think it will help updating improve since I’m so busy.

However, I won’t be strictly doing shorties. It will be more of a “stopping when I feel like it” instead of forcing out a certain amount of words simply because it may have been a while since I updated. That way, the 7 that voted “Yes” to small chaps and the 3 that voted “No” will each get some of what they asked for.

So, new poll about to go up! Which story gets a “shortcake” update first? 😀

I wanted to wish you a very happy 30th birthday. You’ve reached a milestone and I thought it would be nice to remember our years in pictures!

You’re loved in New York. <3

Since I’m actually starting to write more (I just updated In His Eyes for the second time in 5 days, or so), I just posted a new poll wanting to know my lovelies’ honest opinion about updates. I’ve said in the past that I want to make smaller chapters because that will allow me to update more often. I’ve done that, chopping down the average 7-8,000 words to 4,000 or less. But I’m thinking about chopping them even more.

Would y’all be cool with super short chapters, like 2500 or less, if it meant seeing several updates from me per week (instead of 1 or two every couple of months)? I have a lot of unfinished WIPs, and some of them, just knowing that they require a long chapter puts me off and I end up not updating them. When I first started, all of my chapters were in the 2,000 range and I updated 5-6 times a week (of course, I wasn’t as busy then, either). I won’t be able to update that many times, but I think, if I really put some effort into it and keep chaps super short, I can update at least twice a week.

What do y’all think? Even if you’re a lurker at Absolution, reading in silence, vote in this poll so I can get a feel for what y’all would like to see. Yes, I know. As the writer, I control the flow and my readers just have to “deal”, but y’all know I’ve never been that way. I write for my love of Yasha, but I post publicly for my lovelies and I try to give them what they want when I can. So vote! 😀

IY Wedding by Sakuban!

What a week! I haven’t updated here in a few days, so I figured it was time. It’s been a little busy with work, post office bullshit, and Trek, but I’ll do a brief “catch up” session. 😀

First, yes, my obsession with the new Star Trek movie continues. I downloaded a bootleg of it the other day, then a better one last night, and in total, including the 2 times I saw it on opening weekend, I’ve seen it 6 times. I shit you not. 6 times and the movie isn’t even a week old! The funny thing is that being a trek fan already, I was very skeptical about this film and didn’t have plans to see it. Then, I saw a few trailers with Spock and lost my fucking mind! 😛

It’s safe to say I’m completely and utterly taken with Young Spock. (I can’t say that enough.) I love the Spock/Uhura pairing, and when time permits, I’m going to dive headfirst into reading all of the S/U ficcage I can get my hands on. I’ve read some already, but yeah, new frontiers. I’m even going to write one, though you guys are never going to read it. *chuckles*

Overall, it’s just nice to have something other than InuYasha since this fandom really isn’t what it used to be for me. With each new childishly stupid incident, I get a little more put off, so S/U is a nice departure. Plus, they’ve renewed my interest in fanfic, because for a while, I wasn’t much for reading it anymore. But that’s for reasons I won’t get into here. The point is, I’m having more fun than I’ve had in a while, so huzzah!

How about a pretty screenshot? I took it while watching the movie. <333

I hate the post office. Like, seriously. They always fuck up everything and I’m completely annoyed with them. They can never get anything anywhere in one piece and getting recourse simply doesn’t happen. For example: I sent Onna a mac computer and guess what they did? Literally broke its neck. I was furious. Now, Onna sends me some a gift, some specialty dolls for my birthday based on The Edge of Seventeen. A set, too, and guess what? They have lost the fucking package. They attempted delivery, no one was home, so I guess that was their cue to lose it. I spent TWO HOURS in that fucking place yesterday just to hear that they can’t find it. So they give me a number to call today -well, it’s been busy all day. I’ve reported them and I’m going there in person tomorrow, and if they don’t find that fucking package, they had better get a fucking cop.

I’m home today trying to relax and get some writing done (if I can tear myself away from this damned movie!), but I’m not going to push it. If the words come, great. If they don’t, back to the movie, lol. Oh, and speaking of writing and such. My friend, Jenn, is selling some of her anime stuff. I told her I was going to list it with my next update in case the lovelies are interested, but I’ll also list them here along with her e-mail address.

Inuyasha:
Inuyasha Manga- 1-25 Brand New. Never been read condition.
Inyasha Ani-Manga- 1-15 Brand New. Never been read condition.
Inuyasha Full Seasons 1-4 and half of 5. (DVDs 1-37) Only watched once.
Inuyasha Ani-Manga for Movie 1. Brand New. Never been read condition.

Full Metal Panic:
FUll Metal Panic-The Second Raid (TSR) DVD.1 Never been watched. Brand New.

Black Cat:
Black Cat Manga 1-15. Only read once. Great Condition. Like New.

Her e-mail is: snowolfs@bellsouth.net
The prices are reasonable, so give her a holler. 😀

Okay, I’m going to git. Lovelies, if anyone wants a copy of the Trek movie (Keep in mind that this is a bootleg. It’s in widescreen format, but it’s far from perfect. If anything, it’s something to wet your whistle until you can see it on the big screen or on DVD) or the soundtrack, give me shout and your Grrrl will hook you up. Otherwise, live long and fucking prosper!

Okay, so I’m not really sending you to Japan. 😛 But my friend took vaca there for two weeks in April and I thought y’all might like to see a few pictures. She visited Osaka, Kobe, Kyoto, Hakone, Tokyo, Nara, Nikko, Kyoto (and a few other places she can’t remember). She has over 1200 pics. Needless to say, y’all are just getting a few, lol.

P.S. Green Tea kit kats are da shit!

And away we go! (these pics are gonna eat the page… (Too lazy to resize)

And she’s serious, too!

I had no idea they still did Sega there. o.o

Damn you, Kikyou!!!! xD

Rumiko poster stuffs!

And more!

My kit kats (and other goodies) when there were still in Japan! xD

Yasha! (She said it’s actually hard to find IY stuff. >.> But they had lots of DBZ. Ungh.)

How cute is that?

Kawaii!

Chibi Yasha!

Kitty! ^_^

Okay, that’s it for now. My page looks fucked. lol.

I hope you’re having an awesome day, sweets. <333

So I like what I see when I’m looking at me
When I’m walking past the mirror
No stress through the night, at a time in my life
Ain’t worried about if you feel it
Got my head on straight, I got my mind right
I aint gonna let you kill it
You see, I wouldn’t change my life, my life’s just… fine!

-Mary J

Life is good. Wicked good. I lived through gram’s anniversary, got some hilarious e-mail from my friend pertaining to lube and checkout counters (the lulz were fantastic), and best of all, one of my favorite artists just gave me a ‘to die for’ present! According to her, because I’ve been so awesome to her, have done so much good for the fandom, and because she loves me (and I love her right back!), the art I wanted to commission from her will only get done if I accept it as a gift.

Words can’t express how humbled I am by that. Seriously. I’d pay a ransom for her work, but not only am I getting exactly what I wanted, but getting it as a gift and for those reasons? I’m stunned and really, really grateful. It kind of showed me that karma actually can work in the reverse. I’ve always tried to play fair out here. I don’t draw first blood. Ever. It’s not my style. We don’t have a problem until you create one, and I think some of the good vibes I do try to put out are making their way back. (So just imagine all the drama queens that put out endless globs of senselessness? 😛 )

I got a little more writing done on Onna’s giftfic, and I’m laying out what exactly what will go into the last chapter of Edge of Seventeen, and for pesky kid brothers ( 😀 ), a little Hanyou Kagome is in order. I owe him, though. I really do, so I’m on it, Danga, I promise a chapter very soon (s0me of it is already written). Same goes for “Everything You Want”, Tina’s ridiculously overdue fic. Ack. So much to get done! Plus, Neddi’s birthday is coming on Friday and she requested a lemon from me that made me just O.o  Okay, I’ll admit, I can write a decent lemon, but what the hell, woman?! I won’t tell y’all what it is, but lawd. O.O I promise to try and nothing more! >.>

It’s Tuesday, but it feels like Friday. I had a good work day, booked a few new clients for June and July, and my dishes are done. Damn! Shit is looking up, lol. I may even make the world right and do my spring cleaning…. Aight, that’s stretching it. <.<  Oh yeah, I did say that I’d show you guys my latest giftart from Kau, who commissioned my nee-chan, Ilsa. Okay, I’ll put up a small version since it’s watermarked now.

Human InuYasha in a hot spring. Can we say YUM?