Beyond Redemption

Well, two things:

1. I was correct when I said my friend got food poisoning -a really severe case. He bought a veggie sub from Subways, and not too long after, got really ill. I think he should sue. He’s been in so much pain -going on a week- and he’s been in the hospital since last Wed. night. They say he may get discharged tomorrow, but I think it will be Tues or Wed. The bacteria they found in his stomach is so bad that as of yesterday, I’m banned from seeing him until they can determine if it’s contagious. I was told to wash my hands and shower as soon as I got home, which I did, and it just pisses me -the fuck- off. I went trolling around the net and found that a shitload of people have gotten poisoned from Subway’s food. WTF is that?

2. Since I’m banned at present and staying inside today, I’m going to use the time to attempt some writing. I really want to have some kind of update for my ‘birthday’, so this is the day to do it. Not sure what fic it will be -whatever cooperates- but you shouldn’t expect greatness because I’m rusty as all get out.

Happy Sunday.

My friend was admitted to the hospital yesterday after a 2-day tint of pain. Not even sure what’s going on yet, but he’s in ICU. Sigh. Really pissed off at his idiot doctor -and him- for not telling me sooner so I could help him avoid this. I think it’s severe food poisoning (Stay away from Subway’s veggie sub >.>), but there was something else wrong, too -more of the problem he was hospitalized for before. It’s sad and all he has is me. I doubt I’ll be able to update anything by my anniversary, not unless he makes it home by this weekend. My fingers are crossed, but that’s for him, not a stupid fucking story.  Couldn’t even make my dental appointment. Fuck.

So, I wasn’t saying anything, but I’m sick again. Been sick all week. Not with food poisoning, though, so I’ve been a little counterproductive still trying to do stuff, when I should be resting and such. I hate this shit. Seriously. I think I may have changed my mind about attending that k-pop concert. The stories I’m hearing about that group’s fanbase, and their behavior during concerts, is a serious turn off -and that’s in Korea. I can’t imagine how they’d act in the states where people wild out as easily as breathing…

I’ve also been checking out this show called Scandal. During my sickies, I’ve been holed up in bed with Netflix, and now, thanks to Kau, Hulu+, so I’m catching up on all of the episodes. It’s 10 times better than I thought it would be (I’m not a Kerry Washington fan, but I like her in this role. I just wish she’d have more than 2 facial expressions: Pissed off and pitiful). If you haven’t seen it, give it a try. You may be pleasantly surprised (ABC, Thursdays, 10PM in NYC).

I’m going to try to update this weekend, provided I can get my shit together. We’ll see.

Had a root canal done yesterday, and oh boy…

The first time I did this was years ago and it was 1-2-3. No pain, no issues, no nothing.  This time, holy fuck. That nerve is, like, raw and it hurt a lot. Still hurts. I’m on codeine and antibiotics and FUCK, man.

That is all.

EDIT: My face is swollen. Yay. >.>

I haven’t been writing. I was supposed to, but I didn’t. I was down. You know why. No need to rehash. The plan is to do some writing today -and the rest of the week. I need something other than RL to occupy my mind. As usual, don’t expect greatness. I had to take an unexpected detour with writing due to being sick, so I feel rusty again. But it’s better than nothing, right?

Kau treated me to some UKISS fanart and I got one finished commission today. I love it. It’s fucking adorable. I’ll post it to my gallery when I get the others so they can go up as a block. I’m very happy with the result thus far. Yay. I’m waiting for two IY arts as well, but one of my artists went MIA on me. Dunno what’s up -this is totally unlike her- but I need to hear from her soon…

UKISS created their first sub-unit (A group within a group) called uBEAT and their first mini album drops tomorrow (Well, today in Korea). Totally excited to hear it because Kevin is being featured as a guest singer and they’re doing some remixes of a few songs from their latest CD, Collage. As usual, I’ll buy the digital copy then a physical one from overseas (I don’t do that for any other group and I never will). I just wish they had gone with a cooler image for this since this CD involves the English speaking members and ‘rappers’ of the group. But… nope. They’re doing the usual Korean, colorful, dorky thing they do. Sigh. But I adore them anyway.

^ Love him.

In other news, came across another art thief on dA. It never ceases to amaze me at how bold these talentless pricks are. But more than that, I just don’t get the stealing and plagiarizing. To me, it sends a simple message:

“I’m a fucking zero, I know it, so this is the only way I can seem like more than a talentless slug in the eyes of people who don’t know any better.”

Seriously, it’s a brand of pathetic that I just can’t relate to. What good is praise that you didn’t earn? In what universe will anyone respect a thief? As someone who has had her fanworks stolen a number of times, it’s a really disgusting, lowlife practice. It shows me that the cunts who stole my work are too stupid and lacking to do something as simple as string a few words together. I have a thousand times more respect for someone who writes a shitty story or makes crappy fanart than the douche-canoe who copies and posts someone else’s shit. Why? Because bad can improve to good and dicks will always be dicks.

Anyway, I’m out.

Okay, so I guess its time for an update.

First, a “Shankies!” goes out to those who shot me some mail to see how I’ve been doing. I was sick, really sick, sicker than I’ve ever been in my life and I probably should have been in the hospital. I refused to go. I’m not 100%, but I’m light years better than I was earlier in the week. There’s still some pain and weakness, recurring headaches and sore/achy muscles, but still, way better than I was (That should give you an idea of just how bad it was). I haven’t been using mail much and stuff, so if you didn’t hear back from me yet, you will, eventually, but know that I appreciate it.

So, let’s fill y’all in, shall we?

I had started writing the next chapter of  In His Eyes  when I fell ill. Not sure if I’ll be picking it back up right away, but I do plan to get back to writing. I also got back the latest art for If I Want To, and whoa. It’s fucking amazing. It’s a ‘couple’ pose and that’s all I want to say because I want you guys to see it and heart it. One art down, two to go!

Went k-pop shopping and got some new U-KISS merch (Japanese CDs and a spiffy bag). I really fucking love that group. Would give just about anything to see them live. I also managed to snag tickets to see B.A.P. (A really popular Korean rookie group) and Depeche Mode in May and September, respectively. K-pop rarely comes stateside, so this is a big deal for us ‘fanatics’. The craziness that went into acquiring these tickets -OMG! They both went on sale on the same day within 2 hours of each other, so Kau and I were tag-teaming Ticketmaster to make sure that we got both sets. It was actually kinda fun.

This is my favorite song and video from BAP.

Watched some Netflix while I was sick and stumbled across two yaoi flicks. One was called “Schoolboy Crush” (also known as “Boys Love”), inspired by boy love manga.

The actors were cute, but one in particular, Kazunori Tani, was just so completely adorable to me (Even though he was sorta the bad guy…).  If you have Netflix, it’s worth seeing at least once (If you like BL. There’s no smut in this). Here are the movie posters from America and Japan.

(Kazunari is in the second frame, leaning over the main protagonist)

The second movie I saw was “Bangkok Love Story”. It was good, but tragic (So is Schoolboy Crush, really), and the ‘uke’ was sooooo cute! Have a peek!

Now, for the nummy uke…

Yeah… being sick wasn’t so bad!

But, of course, no Asian boy is prettier than my Asian boy…

From gorgeous baby…

To gorgeous adult~

That’s all for now. Hopefully, I’ll have something written soon and I’ll respond to mail when I can.

So, I’m a bit out of commission. I think I got some food poisoning, and between the throwing up and fever, I’m just out of it. Terribly out of it.

I barely slept last night, so I’m really effin’ tired today and I also slept in a weird position because I woke up with my lower back aching. I didn’t get much writing done, either. The plan was to do some today, but I’m a little wiped out, so we’ll see. Maybe a small/short update if I can manage it. No promises.

EDIT: Took a nap. Had a nightmare. >.> Fucking yay. However, I’m awake now and will start on some writing.

Still no real change. We’re going to the doc again tomorrow. We’ll see what they say from there. I’m tired, you know. Tired of the fear and worry. I cannot lose my friend. That would utterly devastate me, but I’m physically and emotionally worn down… Prayers and good thoughts are appreciated.

Writing today. Actually started writing the day before yesterday, had good flow going, too, but then all of this came back to haunt us and I stopped. We’ll see what I can accomplish today. Again, chapters will be short for a while. It’s better for me and increases the chances of you guys getting more updates.

Thanks so much for all of the reviews on In His Eyes. It was nice to see people enjoying it since I’ve been struggling so much with fanfiction these last 2-3 years. But as you can see, the desire to finish for you guys is still there, even if its weakened, so I’m going to keep trying. I hope to post something tonight.

See ya at Absolution.

EDIT: Make that update later on today.

He has to go back. There’s no way around it. He’s showing all of the symptoms that signal his dire illness has returned. This is horrible. No other word for it. I’m pretty fucking worried, but I’m trying to keep the faith. I’m hoping that it’s just a matter of new/more medication, but I just don’t know. Sigh.

I’m not really doing mail right now, so if you were thinking of shooting me any, now is not the time unless it’s an emergency. If you’ve e-mailed me already, I got it, so there’s no need to mail me again unless it’s seriously important. I’m a little moody at present, so now is the time for anything trivial.

Those who know exactly what’s going on with my friend, I’ll fill you in when I know something myself. <3