Beyond Redemption

I haven’t updated since the verdict that only a fucktard would agree with. I’ve spent my time in real life and on facebook, along with reading old works and hashing out some plots. I haven’t actually started pounding the keys yet, but I will. Been reading some het/shoujo manga, too, to get me in the mood. Cause, let’s face it, some of my stuff is shoujo-ish. Like If I Want To. Hee.

I’ve been checking out a lot of InuYasha fanart (kinda nice that new stuff is still coming out), and while much of it is just lovely, I can say with certainty that I prefer my version of InuYasha: Street wise, badass, modern, and drop dead gorgeous. Like my anniversary art. ( •ॢ◡-ॢ)-♡

I know some people despise that kind of alternate universe thing, but that’s their fucking business. I love it. My readers enjoy it. So, what haters and purists think is probably on the lowest rung on my ‘give-a-shit’ meter. When I look at my art, I get inspired to write and that’s what matters.
(｡´ ‿｀♡) Don’t like it? Don’t look at it. Trust me, it’s not gonna change my day in the slightest, and since my sites are private and relatively off the map, you won’t see my shit unless you’re specifically searching for it. Makes me all squishy inside! ♡o｡.(✿ฺ｡ ✿ฺ)

Anyway, I think I may go do a bit of that Yasha-lovin’ right now! 😀
Ciao bellas!

EDIT: Threw together a skin today. It will probably post later on.

I haven’t updated my blog in a long while. Guess I didn’t have anything to say. Spent the last couple of weeks taking care of my friend, who has a new crop of problems in addition to his old ones. But we’re determined to get him better. As for me, I’ve been on FB a lot, more than usual, playing this game and I realize that I tend to do that (fall into games) when I want to escape shit. Bad habit.

Been rereading old works/chapters, trying to get myself back into my writing by remembering what I liked about it. I’m nowhere near the best; this is just a hobby. But I have to say that I’m rather proud of a lot of my works. I read it and say, “Wow, Grrrl, you actually wrote that.” lol. People have told me often that they really enjoy my stories and how great they are, but unlike so many other fanfic authors, that kind of thing never goes to my head. I’ve got too much of a complex to carry that level of conceit, but I can say -for once- that I’m happy with my stuff and that’s huge for me.

Anymewho, I do plan to write and update in the near future. That used to be my escape, and really, it needs to go back to serving that purpose. After all, I’m realizing that I kinda miss my main squeeze…

It only took all day and all night -literally- but fuck me if I didn’t get that update posted at 5AM, lol. Now that’s determination! I’m gonna sleep like I’m in a coma for a few hours. Enjoy the update, go see the new art on the layout (and the commissions I posted at my gallery), and thanks for hanging out with me over the last 8 years. It’s been a slice! (ɔ˘з˘)ɔ

Well, God willing, I will have at least one update on my anniversary, lol. I have no idea why it’s important to me to update on that day. I guess it’s tradition, or whatever, but yeah. Not having anything at all was bugging me. I actually had a nice plan for my ‘birthday’ this year, but it’s all fucked now, so… forget it.

I’m tired. In a lot of ways. Nothing is fun anymore. Maybe I’m just horribly rusty, but everything is work and nothing is fun, so it just sucks. As for what’s being updated, well, it’s been a fave with my readers, but I can tell you now that it’s not The Neighbor or If I Want To, so if you were looking for those, stop now. I’m updating what happened to give me the least shit -and even that’s giving me shit- so it’s a kinda, take what you can get situation. Don’t expect anything awesome. I’m rusty, and like I said, just tired.

Later.

Well, two things:

1. I was correct when I said my friend got food poisoning -a really severe case. He bought a veggie sub from Subways, and not too long after, got really ill. I think he should sue. He’s been in so much pain -going on a week- and he’s been in the hospital since last Wed. night. They say he may get discharged tomorrow, but I think it will be Tues or Wed. The bacteria they found in his stomach is so bad that as of yesterday, I’m banned from seeing him until they can determine if it’s contagious. I was told to wash my hands and shower as soon as I got home, which I did, and it just pisses me -the fuck- off. I went trolling around the net and found that a shitload of people have gotten poisoned from Subway’s food. WTF is that?

2. Since I’m banned at present and staying inside today, I’m going to use the time to attempt some writing. I really want to have some kind of update for my ‘birthday’, so this is the day to do it. Not sure what fic it will be -whatever cooperates- but you shouldn’t expect greatness because I’m rusty as all get out.

Happy Sunday.

No, I don’t have any updates ready yet. Let’s just get that off the table now.

The last few days have been spent updating Absolution. You probably didn’t really notice it because I was working internally and only shut it down for a few minutes at a time. It wasn’t fun at all. Now that it’s fixed, I can tell ya what went down. Basically, her software was old and she was starting to spit out random error messages, which isn’t cool.

She needed an upgrade, so I had to do a lot to make it happen, because when I did finally update her software, just about everything that could go wrong went wrong. I won’t get into any tech details -I don’t share that stuff- but I will say that trial and error sucks! But finally, she’s fully updated, secure, and no more random errors or incorrect data numbers. (I deleted several stories that used to be in the archive -not mine- and she wasn’t updating the changes in the reviews. There was about 3oo more than there should have been, but now the numbers are fully accurate and shit is fucking peachy. (ɔ˘з˘)ɔ

In two weeks I turn 8 years old. I’d like to update in time for my anniversary, but we’ll see what happens. There will definitely be a new layout posted with some badass Yasha art (look forward to it!) and I treated myself to the gift of moar Kevin Woo art because >.> I love UKISS. This time, it’s chibi art and it looks fucking adoooorable. I’ll post all my goodies on D-Day (June 16th). Until then, let’s all cross our fingers that you Grrrl’s brain will get out of tech mode and get back into story mode! ✌(-‿-)✌

So, as of today (Friday), I’m going to seriously start writing. I always have an update ready for my anniversary and I don’t want to have that milestone come in with me having done absolutely nothing. I owe that to myself, at the very least. So, let’s see what I can cook up. That said, I don’t know if I’ll be updating as soon as something is ready or if I’ll wait. All I know is that something is getting written, dammit.

I haven’t been writing. I was supposed to, but I didn’t. I was down. You know why. No need to rehash. The plan is to do some writing today -and the rest of the week. I need something other than RL to occupy my mind. As usual, don’t expect greatness. I had to take an unexpected detour with writing due to being sick, so I feel rusty again. But it’s better than nothing, right?

Kau treated me to some UKISS fanart and I got one finished commission today. I love it. It’s fucking adorable. I’ll post it to my gallery when I get the others so they can go up as a block. I’m very happy with the result thus far. Yay. I’m waiting for two IY arts as well, but one of my artists went MIA on me. Dunno what’s up -this is totally unlike her- but I need to hear from her soon…

UKISS created their first sub-unit (A group within a group) called uBEAT and their first mini album drops tomorrow (Well, today in Korea). Totally excited to hear it because Kevin is being featured as a guest singer and they’re doing some remixes of a few songs from their latest CD, Collage. As usual, I’ll buy the digital copy then a physical one from overseas (I don’t do that for any other group and I never will). I just wish they had gone with a cooler image for this since this CD involves the English speaking members and ‘rappers’ of the group. But… nope. They’re doing the usual Korean, colorful, dorky thing they do. Sigh. But I adore them anyway.

^ Love him.

In other news, came across another art thief on dA. It never ceases to amaze me at how bold these talentless pricks are. But more than that, I just don’t get the stealing and plagiarizing. To me, it sends a simple message:

“I’m a fucking zero, I know it, so this is the only way I can seem like more than a talentless slug in the eyes of people who don’t know any better.”

Seriously, it’s a brand of pathetic that I just can’t relate to. What good is praise that you didn’t earn? In what universe will anyone respect a thief? As someone who has had her fanworks stolen a number of times, it’s a really disgusting, lowlife practice. It shows me that the cunts who stole my work are too stupid and lacking to do something as simple as string a few words together. I have a thousand times more respect for someone who writes a shitty story or makes crappy fanart than the douche-canoe who copies and posts someone else’s shit. Why? Because bad can improve to good and dicks will always be dicks.

Anyway, I’m out.

Okay, so I guess its time for an update.

First, a “Shankies!” goes out to those who shot me some mail to see how I’ve been doing. I was sick, really sick, sicker than I’ve ever been in my life and I probably should have been in the hospital. I refused to go. I’m not 100%, but I’m light years better than I was earlier in the week. There’s still some pain and weakness, recurring headaches and sore/achy muscles, but still, way better than I was (That should give you an idea of just how bad it was). I haven’t been using mail much and stuff, so if you didn’t hear back from me yet, you will, eventually, but know that I appreciate it.

So, let’s fill y’all in, shall we?

I had started writing the next chapter of  In His Eyes  when I fell ill. Not sure if I’ll be picking it back up right away, but I do plan to get back to writing. I also got back the latest art for If I Want To, and whoa. It’s fucking amazing. It’s a ‘couple’ pose and that’s all I want to say because I want you guys to see it and heart it. One art down, two to go!

Went k-pop shopping and got some new U-KISS merch (Japanese CDs and a spiffy bag). I really fucking love that group. Would give just about anything to see them live. I also managed to snag tickets to see B.A.P. (A really popular Korean rookie group) and Depeche Mode in May and September, respectively. K-pop rarely comes stateside, so this is a big deal for us ‘fanatics’. The craziness that went into acquiring these tickets -OMG! They both went on sale on the same day within 2 hours of each other, so Kau and I were tag-teaming Ticketmaster to make sure that we got both sets. It was actually kinda fun.

This is my favorite song and video from BAP.

Watched some Netflix while I was sick and stumbled across two yaoi flicks. One was called “Schoolboy Crush” (also known as “Boys Love”), inspired by boy love manga.

The actors were cute, but one in particular, Kazunori Tani, was just so completely adorable to me (Even though he was sorta the bad guy…).  If you have Netflix, it’s worth seeing at least once (If you like BL. There’s no smut in this). Here are the movie posters from America and Japan.

(Kazunari is in the second frame, leaning over the main protagonist)

The second movie I saw was “Bangkok Love Story”. It was good, but tragic (So is Schoolboy Crush, really), and the ‘uke’ was sooooo cute! Have a peek!

Now, for the nummy uke…

Yeah… being sick wasn’t so bad!

But, of course, no Asian boy is prettier than my Asian boy…

From gorgeous baby…

To gorgeous adult~

That’s all for now. Hopefully, I’ll have something written soon and I’ll respond to mail when I can.

Can you guess what I’m thinking of?