Beyond Redemption

Okay, now that I was all loud about it…lol.

Yeah, I updated, finally. And it was one of my most difficult stories. I swear, that thing hated me for the fucking longest -to the point that I only updated on my kid bro’s birthday (February)- but this makes twice in the long history of that short story that I actually got my shit together and was able to update without using kid bro as my sole motivation. LOL. I think the fact that I have a bunch of new music helps. Good tunes really gets me in the mood. But anyway, yeah, come read and love on it while I dig in and try to do it again tonight. 😛

I was really sick on Friday. The kind of sick that keeps you in bed all day long and contemplating a visit to the ER. I’m feeling a bit better now, but not 100%. I’m so sick of this shit, for real. I want one day where something isn’t fucking haywire.

Thursday night I actually got a tiny bit of writing done. I’m hoping to do a bit more tonight, but it probably won’t be much since I’m still recovering. Sigh. I wasn’t happy with what I had, either, but I’m not going to complain too much. The words don’t want to come at all, so beggars can’t be choosy! For a while, chapters may be kind of uneventful, or even dry, but that’s because I’m forcing it now ’cause I have no choice. >.> Yay.

I also popped in at one of my favorite Industrial artist’s website, Assemblage23, and bought a bunch of music. Apparently, he had his own label and had some good acts signed to it. Two of which are, Lost Signal and Espermachine. They’re both fucking awesome (If you like stuff like VNV Nation or Seabound, or Covenent, you’ll like these guys), so expect to hear them on Absolution shortly. Assemblage23 also covered one of my favorite 80’s songs, “Love My Way” by the Psychedelic Furs and it sounds so neat! The digital albums were super cheap, too, and it was nice to support some of my indie groups, especially Assemblage23, whom I love!

Oh, and kau bought me a new computer chair and a back massage thingy that fits into the chair. How awesome is she??? We don’t like the chair much, so I’m debating sending it back. The site wasn’t that forthcoming about the thing and we’re a little unhappy with it in person. The massage thingy, I’ll keep and see how it works out.

Okay, gonna try a bit of writing and see how it goes.

P.S. Wanna read the translation of the new InuYasha drama CD?
It’s actually cute… even if they did make InuYasha look like an idiot. Again.

I totally screwed up my back years ago (two slipped lumbar discs), and it tends to flare up every once in a while, but this… I’m in hell. I injured my upper back a few days ago, but by using a tennis ball in self massage, I fixed my ache almost completely. My lower back is another story… So, I’m doing all of these stretch exercises and I got DRUGS, y’all! XD  My doc gave me a slew of stuff -topical pain cream, motrin, Tylenol3, and muscle relaxers. Hopefully, using all of that stuff in tandem will end this nightmare for a while because just sitting was an issue and I won’t even get into the accompanying sciatica…

Anyway, that’s what’s going on. Gonna attempt a bit of writing today. I’m developing cubital tunnel now (It’s like carpal tunnel of the forearms that runs into the ring and pinky fingers. It just as painful and bothersome), so I’ll have to be careful since I write, but obviously use my hands/arms for work, too. ARGH. Will I ever NOT be aching?!

In “squee” news, my new commission from Cati should be ready soon. It’s for “If I Want To” and I just approved the sketch 2 days ago. It’s super cute and IK -that’s all I’m saying. That fic is getting so much art… I really need to fucking write it already, ne? I’ll see what I can do this week.

Though, it may not seem like it since I haven’t been writing or posting. I swear, I haven’t felt like doing shit. No, that’s incorrect. I think about writing all the time, but I just don’t actually do it. Which sucks, really. It’s like I’m not getting past the hurdle of putting pen to paper -even though I actually want to. Therefore, here is a warning you guys are totally used to: The next few chapters are gonna suck. I’m ridiculously rusty, my mood for writing isn’t really there, and I just don’t know how many words are actually gonna come, you know? These next few chapters will be short, maybe even uneventful, but I need to put them out there anyway just to get back into writing or else I won’t come back from this hiatus. So, yeah. That’s how it is.

In other news, if your account is locked for being MIA, don’t mail me asking about your account with any kind of tude. That’s pretty much begging me to delete you. And I will. So we’re clear, I never give anyone a time frame for how long they can disappear before they lose their account. Everything is at my discretion and some people do have more leeway than others, especially if they’ve always been a frequent reviewer. I can do that because my site is private and I don’t have to follow anyone’s rules but my own. The only stress I want to deal with at Absolution is the pressure I put on myself to write. Nothing else will be tolerated.

I’ve been kinda sick lately, too, and it makes for a mood killer. Got a doc appointment on Wed. and will hopefully start to get some answers as to what the fuck is going on with me. But until then, my mood really isn’t the best. Still, I’ll do what I can for you guys, writing wise.

I haven’t updated since the verdict that only a fucktard would agree with. I’ve spent my time in real life and on facebook, along with reading old works and hashing out some plots. I haven’t actually started pounding the keys yet, but I will. Been reading some het/shoujo manga, too, to get me in the mood. Cause, let’s face it, some of my stuff is shoujo-ish. Like If I Want To. Hee.

I’ve been checking out a lot of InuYasha fanart (kinda nice that new stuff is still coming out), and while much of it is just lovely, I can say with certainty that I prefer my version of InuYasha: Street wise, badass, modern, and drop dead gorgeous. Like my anniversary art. ( •ॢ◡-ॢ)-♡

I know some people despise that kind of alternate universe thing, but that’s their fucking business. I love it. My readers enjoy it. So, what haters and purists think is probably on the lowest rung on my ‘give-a-shit’ meter. When I look at my art, I get inspired to write and that’s what matters.
(｡´ ‿｀♡) Don’t like it? Don’t look at it. Trust me, it’s not gonna change my day in the slightest, and since my sites are private and relatively off the map, you won’t see my shit unless you’re specifically searching for it. Makes me all squishy inside! ♡o｡.(✿ฺ｡ ✿ฺ)

Anyway, I think I may go do a bit of that Yasha-lovin’ right now! 😀
Ciao bellas!

EDIT: Threw together a skin today. It will probably post later on.

I haven’t updated my blog in a long while. Guess I didn’t have anything to say. Spent the last couple of weeks taking care of my friend, who has a new crop of problems in addition to his old ones. But we’re determined to get him better. As for me, I’ve been on FB a lot, more than usual, playing this game and I realize that I tend to do that (fall into games) when I want to escape shit. Bad habit.

Been rereading old works/chapters, trying to get myself back into my writing by remembering what I liked about it. I’m nowhere near the best; this is just a hobby. But I have to say that I’m rather proud of a lot of my works. I read it and say, “Wow, Grrrl, you actually wrote that.” lol. People have told me often that they really enjoy my stories and how great they are, but unlike so many other fanfic authors, that kind of thing never goes to my head. I’ve got too much of a complex to carry that level of conceit, but I can say -for once- that I’m happy with my stuff and that’s huge for me.

Anymewho, I do plan to write and update in the near future. That used to be my escape, and really, it needs to go back to serving that purpose. After all, I’m realizing that I kinda miss my main squeeze…